I haven’t been making the blog rounds for about a week or so now. I throw my post up for the day and swoosh, I’m gone from the computer for the greater part of the day. I just can’t concentrate on reading as of late. Maybe it has something to do with this little creature who is sitting here on the floor with a little pink pig toy in his mouth.
I have been thinking about things lately and I think I have come up with a rational reason for the amount of time I have spent on the computer for the past three plus years. The last two years of Murphy’s life I was more of a caregiver than anything else. Once he was settled in and sleeping in the mornings, I would escape in body and mind to the computer to avoid what I knew would one day be the inevitable. I knew it, I just didn’t want to watch him and be reminded of it all day each day. The computer took all those thoughts and hid them for a while. It covered the depression that I was feeling daily.
Then after Murphy’s death (it’s still difficult to write those four words) I came to the computer for almost a year, again as my friend who took my mind off thoughts I didn’t want to think. It was sort of like that commercial, “Calgon take me away”, and my computer did indeed take me away.
But now all that has changed. I have this sweet little creature who just wants to play and have fun all day long. He’s new life and a life that has a long happy future. I am a sucker for happiness. It’ll get me every time. I don’t want to miss a moment of this new happiness, not one moment of any of it.
So please forgive me for being selfish and pretty much ignoring my computer during the day, I just have new experiences to explore and relish right now. Oh sure, I’ll continue to post just as I always have, you just might not see my paw prints very much around the web for a little while.
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